I saw the leaves of Fall in the midst of it all
Caper with the sighing breeze and endless cedar seas, it bleeds
With evergreens, with verdant galaxies seamlessly weaved
'Tween midnight strands, abyssal onyx streams

Burnished blossom browns they bury me
In a deep ravine of soothing oxytocin fleece
Shifting weight, I can't escape, embrace the melting cold
The blaze within burned the reaper's somber hold

Oh midnight star
How your eyes bring my heart to my throat
Shadowed umbra, phantom anima
Below

Nostalgic ecstasy for olive skin
I crave the way your hands felt placed below my chin
Sweet sixteen and seventeen I know that
We were only kids, but your lips felt
Like the comely Hiraeth home, a love I'd somehow always known

And it's so strange, the way your ways
Ensnared the vibe of the age, like lantern
Flames cry out to a confined space
In the endless depths of a haunted place, I could
Taste the peaceful rest that I had sought for for so long, the Keter
Sphere, the Ain Soph Aur, the night owl's mystic heartbreak song

But I may never know what it was about they way that you were
That stole its way to untouched fathoms and caused the waters to stir
Or why the nightfall tress and chestnut depths were the psychic archetype
To a magnum opus that I'd search for in the moonless dead of night

You had me stargazing
Constellating
Unfurling waves
In fervent shades

But was it anything to you? Did the moments move you too?
Or was the symphony all in my head?
Did the aches begin to fade? And the nightmares drift away?
Could you see the light up ahead?

I fell in love with the searing cold
I fell so hard for those days of old
I fell into waterfalls of blue
I fell apart waiting here for you
Here for you

Stargazing
Was it worth saving?
Unfolding days
In sober shades

But was I good enough for you? 'Cause with a single look I knew
I would never be the same
I gave my all and more for you, even though I was afraid
But I can't help but feel I'm to blame

I fell in love with the loveless cold
I fell so hard for those words untold
I fell into regrets and distant views
I choked and gasped waiting here for you

It was you
Always you

Though those Autumn eves have wilt with the trees
Blossoms of brown will always take me back

You are the light before the rain
You are the life inside my veins; the galaxies inside my brain
You are the start, you are the end, you're all the love I had to give
And oh I wish, I wish, I wish I'd told you
How much I loved you then

Midnight tress and chestnut depths
Were the best that happened to me
Heartbreak burnished blossom browns
So dark that I couldn't see

"Too fucked up to be loved" I could
See the look in your eyes
Every moment felt like home with you
But I was left here to die