December air kissed the crypt that I called home
Beloved absentee, how your deep hypnotic gaze leaves me
Within your cedar webs and nostalgic evergreens

I had hoped that you might becalm the noise
The way you did on that cold Autumnal night
It was such a gentle squeeze
The haunting way that your voice adorned the breeze

But those burnished blossom browns bury me
In an era of innocent, sweet mystery
In a love that speaks in 12-string galaxies

Because of you, I saw the best in me,
But now I can't pretend
'Cause the rope was the only one that
Held me in the end

With the songs I left unsung
The threaded hand of death coaxed the air out from my lungs
Its bruising hold a doleful soothing cold

Embellished webs of red
Didn't believe the words you said
The canticle of silence dimmed the light
Inside my grieving head

Would it all been different had I spoken to a friend?
Would it have ever changed a thing?
Would it save me from the bitter, lonely dead?

I tried to live this life the best I could

In the stilling winds you can always find me
In your satyr dreams and all the in-betweens
I couldn't bear to see you go
But burnished blossoms left me buried down below

With the words I left unsaid
She found me hanging there, green eyes around my neck
With hurtful lies I heard from shadowed skies

Did it hurt you so?
To see your baby sinking into the undertow?
Did you finally get it?

I was in so much pain
I just couldn't stay

October air kissed my lips, it felt like home
But first love, you made me feel like I was all alone
'Cause I was alone
I had always been alone

And I knew, like this I wouldn't survive
And if I wanted to live, this part of me would have to die
With my teenage years, with those days of our lives

And it ripped my heart to fucking shreds
To watch all I loved fade to echoes in my head
I was just a kid scared of losing all my friends

But in those burnished blossom browns I saw everything
Oh how it haunts me so
I will never forget that year in the afterglow

"Too fucked up to be loved"
Would you have stayed?
Had I changed?

First love
Can't hear me now
As the rope takes me home